I'm very confused and could use help. I'm a college student and for most of my life I considered myself straight. None of my relationships with guys worked, they all felt forced. Touching them (even just holding hands) was a chore and kissing them made me Ill. I still wanted to date them, of course, but I couldn't seem to be attracted or close to them. Eventually, I chalked it up to me just being unable to commit.
Then I got to college and started looking around. I still want to date guys, but I find myself looking at girls with much more interest. I could see myself with them physically, which I never had with guys, but despite that I still don't know if I'm bi, straight, lesbian, or bi-curious and, since I live in a fairly homophobic area of the country, I have no idea how to figure it out and no one to talk to. Any ideas would be much appreciated.