I am gay, but I don't want to be because my family hates gay people...
I figure I could be gay for a long time now but I have been living in denial all my life, and it has taken my life away.
I am always depressed and I used to cut myself, though I don't do that anymore. I am always angry at my parents, and I do whatever it takes just to make friends. I've already asked the "what if i turned out gay" question to my mom and stepdad, and both said that it wouldn't be a good thing for me to be gay. They said it was unnatural for two men to be together. Unfortunately I feel the same way.
Is there no way to give up homosexuality? Of note, if it is a treatment that involves Jesus, I am not interested. I don't believe in "God" or "Jesus Christ" in any way, shape, or form.
If there is truly no treatment, then I guess the guilt will get to me eventually.