androgyny


Am I androgynous or transsexual?

I’ve realized that I’m not stereotypically female, and don’t want to be. My vague masculinity and physical appearance have lead people to assuming I’m lesbian. I don’t feel a physical attraction to men or women, and know that I’m pansexual, but I don’t know whether I’m androgynous or not. I feel uncomfortable with my female body, but I’m not completely sure I should be male. I remember wanting to be a boy and believing I should’ve been as a kid. During high school, I felt reluctant to have the mistake the school made as labeling me male fixed. Recently, I’ve had the desire to bind my chest, and feel hesitant whenever I’m asked to identify my sex. When I have to, I want to say I’m male. I want to look masculine and have a flat chest, but not a penis. I don’t desire any kind of surgery beyond having my ovaries removed. I felt relieved learning of androgyny, but now I’m uncertain and scared. Am I really androgynous or actually transsexual?


I am androgynous and pansexual-but how do I communicate that to people?

Not to long ago I discovered that I was androgynous which was honestly the happiest day of my life. I've never felt so good to understand who I am. I'm also pansexual. But not a lot of people are familiar with these terms. A lot of people seem to blindly say things against who I am. I don't blame them for not knowing about androygnous but I do still hurt when they use words like daugther or girls or boys. I mean why must I choose a side? I just don't know how to get people to understand exactly what I mean. It's so hard to explain to them why I'm androygnous. I mean I didn't choose to be it I just chose to accept it and now I must try and and live with it and get by with all these questions like "please check male or female for your gender" I mean what do I pick? I'm reminded every time I sign up for something or even when I'm shopping in both "men" and "women" sides of the store. I don't know what to do anymore? How do I make this huge part of me known?!