I've always been confused about my gender... I'm a straight female, but I don't identify with being female at all. I never have, even when I was quite young. But the strange part is, I have a very strong attraction to masculine men, the same men I envy in every way due to their gender. I have a very feminine appearance, the large curves, the small frame, and I hate it. I hate how small and womanly I look. I don't relate or connect to other women on any level. They make me feel uncomfortable, just very out of place. The majority of my friends are male. I often feel like a gay man trapped in a woman's body and it bothers me to no end.