I am gay and out for over 6 years now. I have never had a relationship, but I crave the intimacy and companionship.
Gay men don't interest me. I don't, for the most part, find them attractive emotionally or sexually (as opposed to physically).
I do find the idea of straight men much more appealing. -NOT- because its wanting something I can't have, but because I see them as "true men". I see gay men (myself included, and many see me as 'butch'), as having emotional structures more similar to women and it is just more apparent in some (Think about stereotypes of gays and lesbians). So I find it difficult to be attracted to what I see as "female" energy. I want male energy. I also don't have -any- desire for anal sex either way. I do like giving oral sex though, but never really had a 'passionate' sexual encounter. I feel very lost and different to most gay guys. It is distressing that I have little to no libido at my age, plus my disinterest in gay men. What can I do?