I am gay and I feel as if I've seriously wronged my parents.
I never had any religious issues surrounding my self acceptance. Though I always felt that I should forget that I am gay, at least for a few years until I am financially independent. My parents are too conservative. They don't even expect me to date a guy before I marry...so, dating a girl and living with her, especially when homosexuality is illegal here and the society so rigidly patriarchal...they would think that its more of a mistake that should be corrected.
And, right now I feel so unsure about my own life, both personally and professionally, that it grips me in guilt. I know that my parents have done so much for me, and by being gay, I've already put aside many of their expectations. I work really hard at my academics, but if my score falls below their hopes from me, that makes me feel twice as bad.
I want to focus on what's important for me, but I don't know how to get my mind off all this?